Alright, I was thinking about death and people who kill themselves today.

I'm not talking about the other ways you can kill yourself, just one.


Could you ever put a gun to your head and simply pull the trigger?


Even if I was suicidal, there is no way I have the balls for that, nooo way. I love life as it is, I just wanted to get other people thoughts on this grim subject.

I think I would have to be in an altered state. That being said, it would haveto be a 357 Magnum or similar hand-cannon, and in my mouth aimed upward. I wouldn't want to take any chances of putting myself in a coma or just moving my facial features a few inches to one side.

Suicide is for cowards. If things got that bad, it would be me, the dog, the Mustang and Mexico.

uhm... if you couldn't, then you wouldn't actually be suicidal...

I couldn't do it. Noooo way. BUT, if I ever were going to off myself, that is how I would do it. Other things aren't fool proof. Who wants to try jumping off a bridge and just getting ****ed up and humiliated?? Haha.

no i couldnt

gimme a handle of bartons and a shotgun and ill have a grand ol' time...its not that i couldnt, but i love life too much to do it.

id rather go down to the welfare lines and pull the trigger a bunch of times...

ORIGINAL: MrAWatts

I couldn't do it. Noooo way. BUT, if I ever were going to off myself, that is how I would do it. Other things aren't full proof. Who wants to try jumping off a bridge and just getting ****ed up and humiliated?? Haha.


Jumping off a bridge, building, or cliff really isn't a logical way of killing yourself. I'd bet if you jump off a 1000 foot building, less than 100 feet into flight you're gonna realize how much you'd rather live...sucks for you[8D]

if i was somewhat drunk, yea, i think i could definetly do it. other than that, probably not.

its probably not so hard if you dont think about it...one motion...up and pull trigger....still...theres no reason to kill yourself...if life got so bad i'm with fastback...car and me all the way to mexico baby

why would you drive all the way to mexico to kill yourself? [8D]

and I would have one hell of a time in vegas before I went.

Uh, sleeping pills ftw.

**** that messy sh1t, I don't wanna cause any more trouble than the suicide. Who the hell wants to clean up brains of their son?

ORIGINAL: SWATSCHOOL

Uh, sleeping pills ftw.

**** that messy sh1t, I don't wanna cause any more trouble than the suicide. Who the hell wants to clean up brains of their son?



Taking pills or cutting or anthing else like that doesn't always work. Chances are you can just mess yourself up and have to go to the hospital. If you are going to do it, go for the win. Don't take any chances. That's how I see it.

But I think the main thing that keeps alot of people from doing it isn't really fear of actually killing themselves, but fear of what happens afterwards.

ORIGINAL: redass02gt

why would you drive all the way to mexico to kill yourself? [8D]

and I would have one hell of a time in vegas before I went.


lol...ya aint goin to mexico to kill yourself...youre going to start a new life...its there or i'm goin to africa to hunt the most dangerous game...point is....if one life gets so bad...start a new one...its a big friggin world

ORIGINAL: MrAWatts

ORIGINAL: SWATSCHOOL

Uh, sleeping pills ftw.

**** that messy sh1t, I don't wanna cause any more trouble than the suicide.Â* Who the hell wants to clean up brains of their son?



Taking pills or cutting or anthing else like that doesn't always work. Chances are you can just mess yourself up and have to go to the hospital. If you are going to do it, go for the win. Don't take any chances. That's how I see it.

But I think the main thing that keeps alot of people from doing it isn't really fear of actually killing themselves, but fear of what happens afterwards.


Exactly, that was the second part of my post that I didn't want to post, lol

People who kill themselves must believe that nothing is better than their existence right now, a point I have a hard time understanding. Others must feel they're going to go on to a better place, aka heaven. I think people who don't follow through are afraid of that nothingness

ORIGINAL: MrAWatts

ORIGINAL: SWATSCHOOL

Uh, sleeping pills ftw.

**** that messy sh1t, I don't wanna cause any more trouble than the suicide. Who the hell wants to clean up brains of their son?



Taking pills or cutting or anthing else like that doesn't always work. Chances are you can just mess yourself up and have to go to the hospital. If you are going to do it, go for the win. Don't take any chances. That's how I see it.

But I think the main thing that keeps alot of people from doing it isn't really fear of actually killing themselves, but fear of what happens afterwards.
lol...i think the main thing that keeps people from doin it is sanity

http://www.myspace.com/jshagen <-- ask my ex husband.. he tried it.. and failed.. fkin loser..


but no.. i couldnt do it.. i think shooting yourself is a pussy way out anyways.. then again, if youre committing suicide chances are youre a pussy anyways..

My dad knows somebody who tried to kill himself, blew his face right off. That's what I'm scared of most. Not killing yourself. If you can't even kill yourself, you must really really suck at life.

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ORIGINAL: MrAWatts

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Uh, sleeping pills ftw.

**** that messy sh1t, I don't wanna cause any more trouble than the suicide. Who the hell wants to clean up brains of their son?



Taking pills or cutting or anthing else like that doesn't always work. Chances are you can just mess yourself up and have to go to the hospital. If you are going to do it, go for the win. Don't take any chances. That's how I see it.

But I think the main thing that keeps alot of people from doing it isn't really fear of actually killing themselves, but fear of what happens afterwards.


Exactly, that was the second part of my post that I didn't want to post, lol

People who kill themselves must believe that nothing is better than their existence right now, a point I have a hard time understanding. Others must feel they're going to go on to a better place, aka heaven. I think people who don't follow through are afraid of that nothingness


Actually I believe religious people don't do it because they are taught they will go to Hell if they do. So I think the fear of burning for eternity keeps them alive. People that do it, do it because they feel like they can't cope with everything. So they think that anything at all would have to be better. The fear of nothingness is also something that keeps people from it, but then again I think people that are really serious about it would prefer nothingness over all of the stuff causing them to feel that way in the first place.

Not sure whichway I'd do it.
So many ways to die...


I would make sure to take a few @ssholeswith me though.
Like OJ, Jane Fonda etc...

If my mustang gets taken away I'll do it;)

my dad was drunk and could do it. i could do it unless i started thinking about how sad people would get. even people that youre fighting with would be crying at your funeral, so i wouldnt want to do that.

My sister's first husband ate the barrel of a shotgun and his parents came home and found him in their kitchen.

Pretty much meat and bone and blood everywhere.

Good times:D

although I'm not suicidal nor ****ed up in the brain, I could totally see myself blowing my brains out. Whats so hard? Put the gun to your head, cock, pull. Its easy as 1-2-3.:D

You never know if you could do it or not until the situation arose....

I have seen up close and personal the devesationvisited upon the family by suicide. Not in my immediate family but a family we are really close to. Boy shot himself after getting put on restrictions or something asinine like that.

The parents lives are shattered. The siblings go blank. It is hell. That has been 20+ years ago and often his mother is still in shambles.
A crying shame. Absolutely a crying assed shame.


Suicide is forever. You ****ty situation is temporary.

Well I tried to hang myself last year, and a shrink asked if I was to kill myself how would I do it. I said shoot myself in the head.

Earlier this year, some kid tried to kill himself with of all things a nail gun. Of course he failed and is in rehab or something.

ORIGINAL: fastbackford351

Suicide is for cowards.


I couldn't agree more.

nope.

however, i wouldn't have a problem blasting someone if they broke into my house.

Just could not imagine a point where life is not better than the alternative.

nope, id think about everyone that cares about me and my family and what theyd be like afterwards. i knew someone that had cancer and blew his brains out with a shotgun. he was a school teacher and a parent. its no laughing matter.
but yes, i do agree that suicide is for cowards

at a certain age, when you get old, or just have no chance of things getting any better, it might be better to end life on your own terms, rather than rotting away.


extreme cases of course.

I don't understand why people think "suicide" is for cowards. If one was a coward, they would NOT be able to have the BALLS to pull the trigger. One could actuallytell me that in a "healthy" state of mind, one would be able to stiff the barrel of a gun, realizing that once you commit, you're dead? If in a "unhealthy" state of mind, I can believe it. I see being a "coward" as hiding in a corner, letting your brain become overwhelmed to the point where suicide has become an option, and not seeking help. But committing suicide is by no means an act of cowardness.

SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH ACT IN THE WORLD! anyone could do it, but you kill more than yourself..you kill your family and friends....do i have the balls to do it, of course...would I? NEVER

when life gets tough, think of the millions that have it worse than you.....you are just a spec on the human map....

ORIGINAL: Slicktastyk Matt

I don't understand why people think "suicide" is for cowards. If one was a coward, they would NOT be able to have the BALLS to pull the trigger. One could actuallytell me that in a "healthy" state of mind, one would be able to stiff the barrel of a gun, realizing that once you commit, you're dead? If in a "unhealthy" state of mind, I can believe it. I see being a "coward" as hiding in a corner, letting your brain become overwhelmed to the point where suicide has become an option, and not seeking help. But committing suicide is by no means an act of cowardness.


1. a person who lacks courage in facing danger, difficulty, opposition, pain, etc.

People who commit suicide can't find the courage to face the difficulty and pain in their lives so they end it. Sounds a lot like a coward to me. Suicide is the easy way out. Pathetic if you ask me.

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SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH ACT IN THE WORLD! anyone could do it, but you kill more than yourself..you kill your family and friends....do i have the balls to do it, of course...would I? NEVER

when life gets tough, think of the millions that have it worse than you.....you are just a spec on the human map....


I'm willing to bet your balls would shrivel up to the size of licethe moment you pick up the gun. Arrogance won't kill anyone, including yourself. And it doesn't matter who has it worse. What worst for me could be everyday life for another. Doesn't make a difference. All that matters is who can handle what under certain circumstances and environments.

It may be selfish... but not coward-ish.

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SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH ACT IN THE WORLD! anyone could do it, but you kill more than yourself..you kill your family and friends....do i have the balls to do it, of course...would I? NEVER

when life gets tough, think of the millions that have it worse than you.....you are just a spec on the human map....


I'm willing to bet your balls would shrivel up to the size of liceÂ*the moment you pick up the gun. Arrogance won't kill anyone, including yourself. And it doesn't matter who has it worse. What worst for me could be everyday life for another. Doesn't make a difference. All that matters is who can handle what under certain circumstances and environments.

It may be selfish... but not coward-ish.


I see what you are saying. The moment when you pull the trigger you are not a coward, I agree with you there that takes serious balls. However I think what they're trying to say what leads you to the point where the barrel of a 45 looks more friendly to you than anyone or anything else in the world is being a coward.

ORIGINAL: Slicktastyk Matt

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SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH ACT IN THE WORLD! anyone could do it, but you kill more than yourself..you kill your family and friends....do i have the balls to do it, of course...would I? NEVER

when life gets tough, think of the millions that have it worse than you.....you are just a spec on the human map....


I'm willing to bet your balls would shrivel up to the size of licethe moment you pick up the gun. Arrogance won't kill anyone, including yourself. And it doesn't matter who has it worse. What worst for me could be everyday life for another. Doesn't make a difference. All that matters is who can handle what under certain circumstances and environments.

It may be selfish... but not coward-ish.


+1000000000000000000000.


its definetly selfish as hell. but it takes balls to go through with it.

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SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH ACT IN THE WORLD! anyone could do it, but you kill more than yourself..you kill your family and friends....do i have the balls to do it, of course...would I? NEVER

when life gets tough, think of the millions that have it worse than you.....you are just a spec on the human map....


I'm willing to bet your balls would shrivel up to the size of licethe moment you pick up the gun. Arrogance won't kill anyone, including yourself. And it doesn't matter who has it worse. What worst for me could be everyday life for another. Doesn't make a difference. All that matters is who can handle what under certain circumstances and environments.

It may be selfish... but not coward-ish.


I see what you are saying. The moment when you pull the trigger you are not a coward, I agree with you there that takes serious balls. However I think what they're trying to say what leads you to the point where the barrel of a 45 looks more friendly to you than anyone or anything else in the world is being a coward.


Indeed... but we're talking about the act of committing suicide, not finding the strength to find the help to not get to the point of being suicidal [8D]

2k1gt... couldn't you consider suicide as dangerous, difficult, and can sometimes be painful? One must be awfully couragous to do all 3 of those things at once ;)

edit for my ****ting spelling lmao
edit for my ****tY spelling LOL!!! I fail. I better not try suicide... probably fail that too lmao

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SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH ACT IN THE WORLD! anyone could do it, but you kill more than yourself..you kill your family and friends....do i have the balls to do it, of course...would I? NEVER

when life gets tough, think of the millions that have it worse than you.....you are just a spec on the human map....


i agree, one of my friends killed himself last year, we never knew anything was wrong with him cause he hid it so well, then one morning he sent one of the guys a message, i got called to go find him but it was already too late. that day i swore in my mind i would never do that to my friends and family and if any of my other friends tried, i would give them a reason to kill themselves:D

ive always wanted to know what dying feels like.

like....how comforting it would be to fill the tub up with warm water, take a couple pills to thin the blood, then slice a couple veins open and just wait to die. i always imagine that you would be able to feel the blood pulsating out of you, and after a little while you would feel a tingling in your extremtities that works its way inward on your body...changing to a numb-type tingle, and then an excruciatingly shar pain that would last a few before complete numbness. i figure the numbness might make it up to my hips before i die.

and then ya think about how it would feel if you were to have walked out far away from the city, and just stood on the railroad tracks while the train hits you while going full speed. those last few seconds, that would really be exhilarating, feeling the rumble of the tracks vibrating through your body, the deafening sound, the anticipation building up more every second until all of a sudden ****in BAM! a milisecond of unimaginable pain before you are splattered across a thousand square feet.

ive no reason to kill myself, but you can bet that should i ever get suicidal, i will have fun with it, and im sure ill do my best to let the whole world know who i was. all of you who mentioned getting drunk to kill yourself have obviously never done hallucinogenic drugs. eat a couple mushrooms, they will give you an entirely different outlook on death and your role as an individual sentient being in the universe.

There is nothing brave about commiting suicide. It does not take 'balls' to eat a bullet or slit your wrists. It takes a complete lack of self worthand extreme selfishness. Nothing ballsy about it.

Self-centered cowardly act.

ORIGINAL: tokinGLX

ive always wanted to know what dying feels like.

like....how comforting it would be to fill the tub up with warm water, take a couple pills to thin the blood, then slice a couple veins open and just wait to die. i always imagine that you would be able to feel the blood pulsating out of you, and after a little while you would feel a tingling in your extremtities that works its way inward on your body...changing to a numb-type tingle, and then an excruciatingly shar pain that would last a few before complete numbness. i figure the numbness might make it up to my hips before i die.

and then ya think about how it would feel if you were to have walked out far away from the city, and just stood on the railroad tracks while the train hits you while going full speed. those last few seconds, that would really be exhilarating, feeling the rumble of the tracks vibrating through your body, the deafening sound, the anticipation building up more every second until all of a sudden ****in BAM! a milisecond of unimaginable pain before you are splattered across a thousand square feet.

ive no reason to kill myself, but you can bet that should i ever get suicidal, i will have fun with it, and im sure ill do my best to let the whole world know who i was. all of you who mentioned getting drunk to kill yourself have obviously never done hallucinogenic drugs. eat a couple mushrooms, they will give you an entirely different outlook on death and your role as an individual sentient being in the universe.



Hell yeah at having fun with it, but as far as letting the whole world know who you are, look at the type of people who have tried that... Cho Seung-Hui (VT shooter), Hitler, Columbine shooter, etc... Be careful and do something like climb up the Sears Tower naked with latex gloves on and leather boots and just stand on top of the building for a couple of hours. Take some shrooms and then hang glide off of the Tower wherever your ****ed up mind takes you lmao. Now THAT would be a righteous way to go.

for me to pull the trigger i would need the following

shrroms, acid, alcohol, a bad case of depression, and a gun.

There isn't much dignity in blowing your brains out, which is why assisted suicide should be legal. There are lots of cases where people should be allowed to die if they want. It's sick the government won't let them...

David Cross [On death & euthanasia]:
I think its funny how, that if I want to die with peace and dignity that there's someone far away that can prevent it. Someone's like [strong southern accent] 'Hi, I just wanted to call. This is Jeanette Dunwoody from Valdosta, Georgia. I heard that you're trying to kill yourself and I just wanna say that, well, you can't.' 'What?' 'Yeah, its not right, because all life is precious.' 'No, my life isn't precious, Ive been reduced to a **** and piss factory. I hurt always. I'm going to die within a year and I'm in pain constantly.' 'Oh, but um...no. Because of the Bible.' 'Well, I don't believe in the Bible.' 'Well, I do, silly!' [Hangs up]

"Suicide is painless......it brings on many changes......" :D

I agree 87Stang......if someone is in incredible pain it should be OK forhim to have assisted suicide.

I wouldn't ever do the act myself unless ^see above^.......wouldn't screw my daughter up with that burden.

ORIGINAL: 1987MustangGT5.0

There isn't much dignity in blowing your brains out, which is why assisted suicide should be legal. There are lots of cases where people should be allowed to die if they want. It's sick the government won't let them...

David Cross [On death & euthanasia]:
I think its funny how, that if I want to die with peace and dignity that there's someone far away that can prevent it. Someone's like [strong southern accent] 'Hi, I just wanted to call. This is Jeanette Dunwoody from Valdosta, Georgia. I heard that you're trying to kill yourself and I just wanna say that, well, you can't.' 'What?' 'Yeah, its not right, because all life is precious.' 'No, my life isn't precious, Ive been reduced to a **** and piss factory. I hurt always. I'm going to die within a year and I'm in pain constantly.' 'Oh, but um...no. Because of the Bible.' 'Well, I don't believe in the Bible.' 'Well, I do, silly!' [Hangs up]



i forget where, i want to say finland or sweeden, but in some european country, they have a brothel right next door to an assisted suicide place.

LOLOL......come before you go :D Or like the convenience stores around here....KUM & GO

ORIGINAL: DaMach04

for me to pull the trigger i would need the following

shrroms, acid, alcohol, a bad case of depression, and a gun.



you wouldn't be able to figure out which end of the gun the bullet comes out of if you were on shrooms.:D
nor would you be able to figure out how the f*ck to pull the trigger. you'd probably end up shooting yourself in the foot. it's hard enough to figure out how to smoke a cigarette, let alone shoot a gun.

Been a long, long time since I went on a 'shroom zoom. But yeah, as I recall, vaguely, operating heavy machinery or firearms will have less than desireable results. Whatever the desired results may be.

Maui.....seven sacred falls.....lots of cow poop and what was growing on it......driving back in an old International pickup truck with 1000ft drops on the sides.......I'm still amazed that I lived[&:]

I could never pull the trigger. I love me way too much to hurt myself. I am one of my favorite people.:D

ORIGINAL: fastbackford351

Been a long, long time since I went on a 'shroom zoom. But yeah, as I recall, vaguely, operating heavy machinery or firearms will have less than desireable results. Whatever the desired results may be.



Yeah, been a while for me as well. New Year's 2000 as a matter of fact...the world turned into a Picasso painting in slow motion. And not in a good way. [:@]

I agree suicide is possibly the most cowardly act a human being can commit. Not just cowardly, but extremely selfish. Hey, if you don't care about yourself then that's just fine, but you should care enough about your family and friends and people who love you to NOT put them through something so devastating.

With that said, I also think it's a slap in the face to God. I know I'll probably get bashed for saying that. But Idc. God gave you life, and although you have free will and may do as you please, in God's eyes you have no right to destroy yourself. Plus, there's no "good" reason for suicide IMO. Your life may be in shambles but that's only temporary.

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With that said, I also think it's a slap in the face to Zeus. I know I'll probably get bashed for saying that. But Idc. Zeus gave you life, and although you have free will and may do as you please, in Zeus's eyes you have no right to destroy yourself. Plus, there's no "good" reason for suicide IMO. Your life may be in shambles but that's only temporary.


How ridiculous the above probably looks to you now, is how it looked to me when I read your original version.

We euthanize dogs when they are in too much pain; don't you think we should extend that same humanity to people if it's what they want?

ORIGINAL: kngdaka

Alright, I was thinking about death and people who kill themselves today.

I'm not talking about the other ways you can kill yourself, just one.


Could you ever put a gun to your head and simply pull the trigger?


Even if I was suicidal, there is no way I have the balls for that, nooo way. I love life as it is, I just wanted to get other people thoughts on this grim subject.


but how would you know that? your not suicidal, your life isnt the dumps, when your depressed, you dont love life, therefor an escape would be suicide, you would understand if you would be able to get as depressed as to be suicidal

I probably couldn't pull the trigger. That's not to say I wouldn't do other things.

All of you people who say suicide is cowardly and selfish, etc. don't entirely know what you are talking about. Most of the people who are suicidal have serious psychiatric problems. They aren't normal everyday people. They are really F'ed in the head and you probably wouldn't know just by meeting them.

You can say or think what ever the hell you want to about me but I know what it is like to be so severely depressed and out of my mind to be at deaths door just waiting to take the right combination of pills, to cut just where I need to. By the time I or someone in my condition gets to that point, nothing and noone matters. Psychological pain is so bad at that point that it turns into physical pain. By then it seems like there is only one choice. Believe it or not, that choice is hard to make. I guess that's why I'm still alive.

Last September my psychiatrist tried a different drug on me that screwed things up worse and made things so bad again I attempted suicide. The only thing worse than trying is having it not work. It screwed up my long and short term memory and gave me nerve damage, mostly in my hands making it hard to write and type. I spent a night in ICU to watch for heart damage. I was shaking so bad I couldn't hold a full cup of water without spilling it. I spent several more days in a psych/drug rehab unit. yay.

I didn't decide I wanted to be clinically depressed. I've been writing suicide notes since I was 13. I'm 31 now. I've tried more meds that I can remember just to get my head straight. I take 5 now just to be somewhat normal and that kinda works. Does this make me a loser?A coward? Being suicidal and omg, attempting suicide comes with the territory. I don't like it anymore than anymore than anyone else. I don't like narcissistic psychiatrist throwing pills, psychologist, councilers asking how I f'in feel, hospitals, or the bills that come with them.

If you think this makes me less of a person then you can go straight to hell.

ORIGINAL: tokinGLX

ive always wanted to know what dying feels like.

like....how comforting it would be to fill the tub up with warm water, take a couple pills to thin the blood, then slice a couple veins open and just wait to die. i always imagine that you would be able to feel the blood pulsating out of you, and after a little while you would feel a tingling in your extremtities that works its way inward on your body...changing to a numb-type tingle, and then an excruciatingly shar pain that would last a few before complete numbness. i figure the numbness might make it up to my hips before i die.

and then ya think about how it would feel if you were to have walked out far away from the city, and just stood on the railroad tracks while the train hits you while going full speed. those last few seconds, that would really be exhilarating, feeling the rumble of the tracks vibrating through your body, the deafening sound, the anticipation building up more every second until all of a sudden ****in BAM! a milisecond of unimaginable pain before you are splattered across a thousand square feet.

ive no reason to kill myself, but you can bet that should i ever get suicidal, i will have fun with it, and im sure ill do my best to let the whole world know who i was. all of you who mentioned getting drunk to kill yourself have obviously never done hallucinogenic drugs. eat a couple mushrooms, they will give you an entirely different outlook on death and your role as an individual sentient being in the universe.

dude you are one sick puppy...i'd share a foxhole with you any friggin day....

aside from that...only good reason to commit suicide would be if you had a brain tumor slowly eatin ya up ... and even then i think i'd wanna go out fightina lion somewhere in africa

death by cop....the only way to go unnatural

try to find the video of the guys in L.A around 1990 ... robbed the bank and literally cut the cops cars to pieces... full auto sks's 200 rd drums, and body armour

all 3 died , but pretty sweet way to go

it was 1997...they are calling them ak47's...but i have seen good video, they are sks's

here ya go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oqfrr26yTSY

heres a good one too, differetn incident

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IHQqW8zOSk

ORIGINAL: JalapenoNotch0

I probably couldn't pull the trigger. That's not to say I wouldn't do other things.

All of you people who say suicide is cowardly and selfish, etc. don't entirely know what you are talking about. Most of the people who are suicidal have serious psychiatric problems. They aren't normal everyday people. They are really F'ed in the head and you probably wouldn't know just by meeting them.

You can say or think what ever the hell you want to about me but I know what it is like to be so severely depressed and out of my mind to be at deaths door just waiting to take the right combination of pills, to cut just where I need to. By the time I or someone in my condition gets to that point, nothing and noone matters. Psychological pain is so bad at that point that it turns into physical pain. By then it seems like there is only one choice. Believe it or not, that choice is hard to make. I guess that's why I'm still alive.

Last September my psychiatrist tried a different drug on me that screwed things up worse and made things so bad again I attempted suicide. The only thing worse than trying is having it not work. It screwed up my long and short term memory and gave me nerve damage, mostly in my hands making it hard to write and type. I spent a night in ICU to watch for heart damage. I was shaking so bad I couldn't hold a full cup of water without spilling it. I spent several more days in a psych/drug rehab unit. yay.

I didn't decide I wanted to be clinically depressed. I've been writing suicide notes since I was 13. I'm 31 now. I've tried more meds that I can remember just to get my head straight. I take 5 now just to be somewhat normal and that kinda works. Does this make me a loser?A coward? Being suicidal and omg, attempting suicide comes with the territory. I don't like it anymore than anymore than anyone else. I don't like narcissistic psychiatrist throwing pills, psychologist, councilers asking how I f'in feel, hospitals, or the bills that come with them.

If you think this makes me less of a person then you can go straight to hell.


Man you are really onephucked up individual. Maintain man. Just maintain.


God speed.

ORIGINAL: JalapenoNotch0

I probably couldn't pull the trigger. That's not to say I wouldn't do other things.

All of you people who say suicide is cowardly and selfish, etc. don't entirely know what you are talking about. Most of the people who are suicidal have serious psychiatric problems. They aren't normal everyday people. They are really F'ed in the head and you probably wouldn't know just by meeting them.

You can say or think what ever the hell you want to about me but I know what it is like to be so severely depressed and out of my mind to be at deaths door just waiting to take the right combination of pills, to cut just where I need to. By the time I or someone in my condition gets to that point, nothing and noone matters. Psychological pain is so bad at that point that it turns into physical pain. By then it seems like there is only one choice. Believe it or not, that choice is hard to make. I guess that's why I'm still alive.

Last September my psychiatrist tried a different drug on me that screwed things up worse and made things so bad again I attempted suicide. The only thing worse than trying is having it not work. It screwed up my long and short term memory and gave me nerve damage, mostly in my hands making it hard to write and type. I spent a night in ICU to watch for heart damage. I was shaking so bad I couldn't hold a full cup of water without spilling it. I spent several more days in a psych/drug rehab unit. yay.

I didn't decide I wanted to be clinically depressed. I've been writing suicide notes since I was 13. I'm 31 now. I've tried more meds that I can remember just to get my head straight. I take 5 now just to be somewhat normal and that kinda works. Does this make me a loser?A coward? Being suicidal and omg, attempting suicide comes with the territory. I don't like it anymore than anymore than anyone else. I don't like narcissistic psychiatrist throwing pills, psychologist, councilers asking how I f'in feel, hospitals, or the bills that come with them.

If you think this makes me less of a person then you can go straight to hell.


Geez, that's rough dude.

Personally, I think the best way for someone to kill themselves would be park the stang in the garage, close the garage door, fire it up and go to sleep from the lush fumes of burnt 93 octane coming from anO/R exhaust.

FYI... Iwill never kill myself. Godgave me a wonderfullifeand I'm gonna live it up til he decides it's time for me to go. :D

Icould, been there, not a trigger though. Literally half-second save.

And it wasnt cuz "oh life is hard and it sucks and i dont want to go on"...i had my own reasons. Nothin like a near death experience to put a different perspective on things. [8D]

EDIT: and its not like i wanted to die either

Ummm no ... couldn't do it -- good luck man with that!

ORIGINAL: JalapenoNotch0

I probably couldn't pull the trigger. That's not to say I wouldn't do other things.

All of you people who say suicide is cowardly and selfish, etc. don't entirely know what you are talking about. Most of the people who are suicidal have serious psychiatric problems. They aren't normal everyday people. They are really F'ed in the head and you probably wouldn't know just by meeting them.

You can say or think what ever the hell you want to about me but I know what it is like to be so severely depressed and out of my mind to be at deaths door just waiting to take the right combination of pills, to cut just where I need to. By the time I or someone in my condition gets to that point, nothing and noone matters. Psychological pain is so bad at that point that it turns into physical pain. By then it seems like there is only one choice. Believe it or not, that choice is hard to make. I guess that's why I'm still alive.

Last September my psychiatrist tried a different drug on me that screwed things up worse and made things so bad again I attempted suicide. The only thing worse than trying is having it not work. It screwed up my long and short term memory and gave me nerve damage, mostly in my hands making it hard to write and type. I spent a night in ICU to watch for heart damage. I was shaking so bad I couldn't hold a full cup of water without spilling it. I spent several more days in a psych/drug rehab unit. yay.

I didn't decide I wanted to be clinically depressed. I've been writing suicide notes since I was 13. I'm 31 now. I've tried more meds that I can remember just to get my head straight. I take 5 now just to be somewhat normal and that kinda works. Does this make me a loser?A coward? Being suicidal and omg, attempting suicide comes with the territory. I don't like it anymore than anymore than anyone else. I don't like narcissistic psychiatrist throwing pills, psychologist, councilers asking how I f'in feel, hospitals, or the bills that come with them.

If you think this makes me less of a person then you can go straight to hell.

i know a guy who played russian roulette with his grandpa's revolver, he was in high school at the time and his girl broke up with him, he says the bullet was one chamber over and he was crying like a baby afterward

ORIGINAL: iraziel

Icould, been there, not a trigger though. Literally half-second save.

And it wasnt cuz "oh life is hard and it sucks and i dont want to go on"...i had my own reasons. Nothin like a near death experience to put a different perspective on things. [8D]

EDIT: and its not like i wanted to die either


you cant open the door halfway bro...speak about it

ORIGINAL: Caution

Ummm no ... couldn't do it
caution is that your car in the sig? where'd you get that flame stripe? i will scrape my stripes off for yours

ORIGINAL: nghtrnnr

ORIGINAL: Caution

Ummm no ... couldn't do it
caution is that your car in the sig? where'd you get that flame stripe? i will scrape my stripes off for yours


Thanks man! It sure is mine -- I had them custom painted threw Automotive Dezignz

http://i147.photobucket.com/albums/r294/manshow003/Caution/CautionCDCAgressive.jpg

ORIGINAL: nghtrnnr

ORIGINAL: iraziel

Icould, been there, not a trigger though. Literally half-second save.

And it wasnt cuz "oh life is hard and it sucks and i dont want to go on"...i had my own reasons. Nothin like a near death experience to put a different perspective on things. [8D]

EDIT: and its not like i wanted to die either


you cant open the door halfway bro...speak about it


LOL, there's just somethings i wouldn'ttalk about/ mentionin OT,.....EVERYTHING is open to critizism and has a tentancy to resurface later in the form of MS paint [&:][8D]

ORIGINAL: okbfd

LOLOL......come before you go :D Or like the convenience stores around here....KUM & GO


Quick Trips are better :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JMfjuz2uvE

ORIGINAL: iraziel

ORIGINAL: nghtrnnr

ORIGINAL: iraziel

Icould, been there, not a trigger though. Literally half-second save.

And it wasnt cuz "oh life is hard and it sucks and i dont want to go on"...i had my own reasons. Nothin like a near death experience to put a different perspective on things. [8D]

EDIT: and its not like i wanted to die either


you cant open the door halfway bro...speak about it


LOL, there's just somethings i wouldn'ttalk about/ mentionin OT,.....EVERYTHING is open to critizism and has a tentancy to resurface later in the form of MS paint [&:][8D]

lol...ok...as long as it wasnt cause you got a sheep pregnant and it wouldnt have an abortion...i hate when that happens

ORIGINAL: jc63_

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JMfjuz2uvE


sucidal tendencies kick ass.

i wonder when that show was ?? it was fairly recent, cuz mike is getting fat

the last i saw them was warped tour about '98 or '99

I think if you want to kill yourself then make it as messy as possible. Go out with a bang. literally haha. Make the people cleaning it up say damnhe messed himself up. Grab some grenades, pull the pins and juggle them until your dumbass gets offed.

No way, there is so much to live for even when thing are going bad. Killing yourself is for weak minded people.

no way, not happening.

ORIGINAL: kngdaka

Alright, I was thinking about death and people who kill themselves today.

I'm not talking about the other ways you can kill yourself, just one.


Could you ever put a gun to your head and simply pull the trigger?


Even if I was suicidal, there is no way I have the balls for that, nooo way. I love life as it is, I just wanted to get other people thoughts on this grim subject.


i've already tried. just forgot that the gun was unloaded when i did it.